March 20, 2005
I'm Off
This ends my stint as guest blogger. Two posts and one resounding fuck you in the comments. I won't lie, that hurt.
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March 18, 2005
I Ask You
Let’s throw out a hypothetical. In high school and college there are those people who let their own feelings of inadequacy get in the way of accomplishing what they want to or what you know they are capable of. During those years, there’s an element of societal sympathy towards these people. Its the loss of potential because of having been raised a certain way in a certain environment that stripped you of what could have been, through little fault of your own and its only yourself being hurt by it. Unfortunately, such people are aware of this general sympathy and so might subconsciously indulge in it to relieve some of the hurt they otherwise feel. Sometimes it’s a cycle; try hard (obsessively even), perceive failure, lose struggle to continue, indulge, then back again. It’s inefficient and detrimentally discontinuous. When this goes on for eight years, it becomes a subtly ingrained, self-destructive coping mechanism. Then say you graduate and get a job. There’s an abrupt change. You now have responsibility and any loss of function because of your feelings of inadequacy doesn’t just affect you, but affects others as well. And so, societal sympathies seem to do a 180 on you. You’re an adult and are entirely responsible for who you are. Unfortunately, eight years or more of habit don’t change quite as quickly with circumstances… And now you also have to deal with the fact that the things about yourself that make you miserable are also hurting others. There’s more to overcome, with an added sense of urgency to overcome it, and no bastion of sympathy to escape in.
But what happens if instead of getting a job you go to law school (you) or medical school (me)? The process is prolonged (perpetuated?), yet the abrupt responsibility may be exponentially more. What do you think?
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Apology
Dear Avid Readers of Foxes,
Sorry for disappointing you by not posting yet, however I promise to disappoint you later today by posting.
I Hate Myself,
Deepal
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